He’s dragging up the stairs at the end of a long day.
He can’t imagine that anyone is listening to him.
To those hurts in his heart.
To the fears.
And the frustrations.
And a sigh escapes his soul that break’s his Father’s heart.
For the Bible says that marriage is supposed to be a blessing and the man that finds a wife finds a good thing,
And he loves you, he truly does. He’s standing on the vows he made to you. And everyday he’s hoping that things will change.
Because he’s really tired.
And wives are to be their husband’s helper. Making a man’s life better, sweeter, gentler.
But you, dear wounded wife, are not helping your man.
For day in and day out, from sun up to sun down — no matter how kind, giving, patient he is with you, your tongue hammers away at your husband’s heart with words that tear his soul apart.
With tones and expressions that reveal your disrespect. Maybe even your utter contempt.
Yet your husband keeps on keeping on. Loving you, exhorting you to relax, to let go.
But you can’t hear him because you refuse to listen to reason.
You reject any message of truth that might help you heal.
And you keep listening to the old tapes that wind incessant in the battlefield of your mind, tormented since childhood.
It’s the voice of your enemy in the form of a critical inner parent. The voice you internalized after listening to your mom scold you unrelentingly all the years of your growing up. Or the voice of your dad screaming, scathing or sarcastic. Or worse.
They say children — and that means all of us — learn what they live. And you, precious wounded wife, learned life and marriage and most likely parenting and other forms of relating all wrong.
And when your husband — who bears his own scars from his growing up years yet valiantly tries to uphold his spousal role day after tedious day — gently suggests that life can be different for the two of you and your kids…
That you don’t have to keep believing the lies your mom told you about yourself…
That you no longer have to follow the abusive rules your dad set forth…
That you don’t have to try and control every little thing…
You lash back in your angry, aggressive way — which is nothing more than a hard shield of sin covering a very tender, deeply hurting heart — like an injured animal baring its fangs afraid it will be hurt again.
And you give voice to a lie that is as old as time.
The lie that you just can’t change.
Not after 20 or 30 or 40 or 50 years of doing life the dysfunctional way you have always done it.
And continuing to believe and live that lie — with all its nasty ramifications that manifest in your marriage — can drain every drop of desire and devotion from the best of men. And maybe he will stick by you year in and year out.
Or maybe he won’t.
Maybe one day he will just say he’s had enough. And Lord knows he probably has.
Or maybe one day he’ll meet a sweet lady at the office.
And everything will come tumbling down and you may begin to see how very wrong and very wounded you are.
But the devastation to you and your babies will be like a tsunami that sucks away your last gulping breath.
And the outcome will depend — again — on your choice. To become better. Or stay just as you are and grow into a bitter, ugly old woman. Alone. Hurting. Hard. Never giving in. And your children growing into adults who limp badly.
But wife, here is an amazing truth that may sound too good to be real.
God loves you. No. Matter. What.
No matter what you’ve been through.
No matter what you have put your husband or others through.
No matter even if you don’t believe in God.
God loves you so much He sent Jesus to die for you. And He wants you to die to your self and your sin and your fears and your hurts so that He can make all things new.
He is your Savior, dear sweet wife. He is the only One who can save you from the mess that is your marriage, the mess that is your life.
He can heal your heart, mend your memories and make you whole. His words of love can finally silence those screaming lies that hold you captive.
You CAN change your life in a heartbeat by making a choice to change.
Anyone can change IF they are willing to surrender to God, admit they are powerless, forgive others through the grace of God and then decide to live a new way. One day at a time.
Just. That. Simple.
Just. That. Hard.
But God and His amazing grace that really, truly is sufficient. And when you are weak, He will be all the stronger. I know. For I was once where you are now. I didn’t heed the warnings that were sent my way over the early years. Wouldn’t hear the still small voice calling me until my former spouse and father of my sons left.
And I was left behind with a million broken pieces scattered everywhere.
So very much was lost that can never be regained.
But you, TODAY, can make a better choice than I did all those years ago.
You can save yourself great heartache.
You can provide for your children a better growing up environment with a mom and a dad together under one roof.
You can choose to honor God with your every word, thought or action.
Dear wife, whose heart is crying to be heard, yearning to be loved:
God hears your every whimper. God seals each tear as a prayer in His bottle.
You can be set free if you so choose.
So why not? Why not choose God’s way? Why not right now?
Why forfeit your life, your marriage and your children’s futures for the sake of a lie?
God is calling to your heart to come to Him.
To let go of trying to control everything in your anger.
To let Him hold you and comfort you in ways your mom or dad never did.
I remember what it felt like back then and even what it feels like 20 years later and that is why I write.
So please don’t let your fear, your pride or your unbelief hold you back a moment longer.
Decide to change by letting God in and the bad out.
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