Resolve to live your calling…{New Year’s BREAKOUT series, Part 6}

SUNBURST Copyright 2013 Sheila Kimball

At the New Year dawned, I felt impressed that our word for 2013 is BREAKOUT.

I have asked the Lord that this will be the year we BREAKOUT of everything that holds us back: the past, old hurts, doubts, fear, and negativity.

And that our writing at Longings End which points to Him {and even our business writing} will BREAKOUT into the world, helping others BREAKOUT of the chains that bind, touching hearts with healing and hope through His perfect love.

But to BREAKOUT into all that God wants me and us to be I must be brave with the heart of a lioness, as Dearest Husband is fond of saying.

You might remember that after much prayer and consideration and saving a few pennies, I walked away on Friday, July 13, from a steady paycheck to chase a dream.

Some folks who love us may have silently questioned the logic of such a move. Here we are, a 50-something couple newly wed after multiple failed marriages, without much money and no medical insurance once I left full-time employment.

But following in the pattern of our God-honoring, God-ordained 47 day courtship and elopement which we know was God’s will for us, we were sure in our hearts that to continue clinging to earthly security was not where God would have us.

And it took our first year together — of getting to know the “beloved stranger” we had each married, and of seeking first the kingdom — before we were both at the same point that this is what we were to do.

And then, like two crazy kids, we took the plunge.

There had been a quote on my bulletin board at work for years which says, “You will never discover new oceans until you have the courage to lose sight of the shore.”

I had stayed moored for a long time.

COUPLE by DOCK Copyright 2013 Sheila Kimball

Always talking about my dream of writing and helping others, while simultaneously dreaming that someday God might answer my prayer for a godly husband.

Hoping and praying. Penning journal entries. Reading books about wishing and dreaming.

But with knees shaking, this JesusChickenLittle dared not make a move that would seriously rock the boat. Instead I ran circles in a hamster wheel.

And you? Do you have a dream that keeps calling to your heart? I bet you do because God has placed a dream deep inside each heart He has created. Perhaps 2013 is the time to start living your dream.

JESUSCHICK Copyright 2013 Sheila Kimball

If I hadn’t met and married the wonderful visionary man of faith I have, I would still be locked away in a tower cell where each day a tiny part of the Velveteen me, the me rubbed real by love, the me God has created me to be, slowly died.

I hated being imprisoned. With my creative juices running dry, I was running breathless in a desert with no oasis in sight.

I wanted to be sharing about Him, the Life Giver, the Dream Giver. One day in prayer several years ago, I had pledged to do PR for the One who changes our lives by changing hearts until they are willing to surrender self.

I needed to comfort others with the comfort I have received. And I have received much. First as the daughter of an alcoholic, next as a single mom with three little babies, then escaping an abusive marriage, and suffering heartbreaks along the way as my heart desperately searched for love in all the wrong places.

I longed to live our dream of Longings End. Where words of faith, hope and love inspire, encourage and lead people to the One who loves them best of all. Where coaching services help people fulfill the God-given call on their lives. Where novels are written, and where one day God willing there will be a foundation to help single moms and abused or abandoned women.

And now it’s six months later. And we realize that dream-chasing is not for the faint of heart!

Our coffers are nearly dry. We are starving artists with a copywriting/consulting service to help us put food on the table and keep the lights on.

There have been days when we have wondered {or was that me crying!!} how we would pay a bill. And then an unexpected gift check arrived in the mail…

There have been serious health situations for both of us. But God found us a wonderful clinic across the river where services are provided on a sliding scale, along with an amazing chiropractor with blessedly affordable rates…

There have been moments when we have looked in each others’ eyes questioning our choice. Yet we keep coming back to the same conclusion that we will do whatever it takes to keep our heads above water while we realize our God-sized dreams.

We toil for long hours at the laptop in order to push the publish button and then wonder if anyone is reading our words? We devise creative ways to promote our coaching services. Are we making a difference in someone’s life? Lord, are we still on target? And then we receive seven encouragements within 24 hours that the words we write and speak have meaning…

When the lies of the enemy are silenced by the strength of our combined faith, the answer to both our longing hearts, is a resounding YES! And He bids us to keep coming forward with Him leading and making the way.

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.
Jeremiah 29:11-13

Our rational minds have once or twice {or maybe three times!} screamed, “We gotta get full-time jobs again.”

But our hearts of faith, spurred on by His still, small voice, say “Hold on a little longer. Trust a little deeper. Hope a little wider.”

“We must be willing to live by faith, not hoping or desiring to live any other way. We must be willing to have every light around us extinguished, to have every star in the heavens blotted out, and to live with nothing encircling us but darkness and danger. Yes, we must be willing to do all this, if God will only leave within our soul an inner radiance from the pure, bright light that faith has kindled.”
~Thomas C. Upham

And our hearts are being enlarged in love as we walk this unknown path with Him in faith. Totally dependent on our Father. Not knowing how or when it will all work out, but trusting that it will. Surrendering more and more of our independence and pride to humbly receive all the Father has for us. And by extension, you.

STORM at RIVER Copyright 2013 Sheila Kimball

RED SAILBOAT Copyright 2013 Sheila Kimball

CANOE COUPLE Copyright 2013 Sheila Kimball

We have left the dock and have jumped into a raging sea and though our eyes may momentarily be blinded by the surging spray, we keep looking at Jesus.

Shortly before dawn Jesus went out to them, walking on the lake. When the disciples saw him walking on the lake, they were terrified. “It’s a ghost,” they said, and cried out in fear.

But Jesus immediately said to them: “Take courage! It is I. Don’t be afraid.”

“Lord, if it’s you,” Peter replied, “tell me to come to you on the water.”

“Come,” he said.

Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus. But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, “Lord, save me!”

Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. “You of little faith,” he said, “why did you doubt?”
Matthew 14:25-28

We don’t want to be called Little-Faiths. We want to be strong of heart and of good cheer.

Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.
James 1:2-4

Mature and complete, not lacking anything. That is what we want, my man and me. To be mature. Completely whole, for we both have been so very badly broken in our lives. And brokenness is such a hindrance, but He is our Healer.

So we hold each other tight, and He keeps us in His hand.

But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.
Matthew 6:33

We choose to believe that the God who made us, the God who loves us like crazy, the God who brought us together, will provide for all we need as we keep seeking Him in trust and hope.

Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see.
Hebrews 11:1

And He loves us more than the sparrows, you know. You, too! And He will never, ever leave us. He is our refuge and our rescue.

Feeding the sparrows at the New York Public Library plaza

With eyes burning bright with faith, though blurry from too many hours staring at a screen, we press ever onward, as we BREAKOUT of the past and all the chains that hold us fast, into a life we have only begun to dream…


If you are so lead, please pray for us as we venture on in faith for Him…Thanks!

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8 thoughts on “Resolve to live your calling…{New Year’s BREAKOUT series, Part 6}

  1. You both are heavy on my heart and I lift you up in prayer. Keep going. This post just inspired me to keep going. Sometimes I wonder about my passion in writing and trying to get published…will it ever happen?

    Eph 3:20

    God bless.

    • If God has called you to write {which I would say it seems He has based on your posts}, NEVER give up. It may take a while, but keep at it one day at a time until you are living your God-given calling. Thanks so much for your encouragement and prayers…it means a lot to both of us.

    • Thank you, TC, for your prayers. We can’t tell you how much it means to us!

      On the writing… is your publication approach limited to traditional royalty publishers? Have you considered the many self-publishing options? As Michael Hyatt rightly points out, the publishing world has changed dramatically over the past few years and the self-publishing route is a quite valid one and is used by some of the most successful writers at times. (Like Ted Dekker)

      Ay… may Father demonstrate the truth of his word in Eph 3:20 in our lives in all things!

      • I’m not fixed on any particular publishing route, I only know I’m on a limited budget so many of the self pub options really aren’t options for me.
        It’s in our Father’s all knowing hands 🙂

        Thanks so much for the encouragement and support. So great to part of the Family of God!